It is a whole different story just a little ways down the road, though. This has been such a lesson to me. I know that just a few years ago, there were definitely things I thought I needed in my life, people I thought I wanted to get to know better or be closer to, and plans I thought I wanted for my life. Just a little farther down the line, I hit a place where I looked back and wondered WHY on earth I wanted those things. They didn't appeal to me anymore. I looked back only to think about how different- for worse- my life would be had those things happened or had certain people or things come into or stayed in my life. It is after that realization that I got the much, much bigger realization that these things didn't not work out for just ANY reason... God was protecting me from them, from what I thought in my naive heart that I wanted.
And my heart is bursting with thankfulness and the greatest love and amazement! To me, looking back and knowing this is the greatest testimony we can have to ourselves because it is the best possible reminder that we can trust God to lead us into His plans for us instead of ours; we saw it act out in our own lives. It shows us with blaring proof that we don't always know what we want, but God always does. We may have a desire for one thing that we feel we can't live without, but God may see that that one thing is what He needs to protect us from becoming wrapped up in. I could never have enough gratefulness and appreciation to the Lord for this... but I live in awe of how God allows you to be distanced at just the right time from what you aren't meant to have in your life. The most amazing thing is when you can make of sense of it... you may still long for it because you thought about if for so long, but then you see that it never fully made sense in the first place. Before then, though, it is easy to get upset because something we want to happen won't happen... what a perfect opportunity to open our eyes to more than our heart's desires and think about what reason God may have for this not happening. He may just be protecting us from something that could be the opposite of what we thought.
I know that these lessons are an incredible blessing and teacher. Like everything else in having faith, it all leads back to trusting God with our lives and not ourselves. I am amazed to think back and ponder over moments when my heart once pleaded for what I thought was meant for me and then wondering why that never came, and finally seeing how everything aligned for better. Only a plan written by God himself could bring us away from what we thought we needed and toward much better blessings we never expected.
Blessings to you :)
Have a happy weekend!
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I'm linking to Faithful Fridays, hosted by Joy on her lovely blog, Doodlebug. You can visit and read her wonderful posts, here.