But my stumbling block is that sometimes I find it hard to let others down, even when I know that what that involves is not the best decision I could make. As a young person in school and around peers, I feel like it can be especially challenging to disagree with others around you or have to let them down or not do something that everyone else is doing- even something very seemingly innocent- because you want to be included and you want to be kind and peaceable. I went through those moments and still do.
Even in a conversation, sometimes I will come away from speaking with someone and then ponder over what was said later in the day, when I find myself thinking that something I agreed with them on or something I did or expressed to make them feel comfortable very well did not align with what God has placed on my heart.
It can have more impact on your faith than you may think to give into letting go of your convictions and your resolve to please God first, even if only for a second or in one sentence you speak. It is not a good feeling to think about something I said that could have gone differently had I put my desire to please God first instead of impressing someone, but on the other hand it is a warm and joyful feeling to look back on my day and know that I pleased God with what I said and did.
It has blessed my life and my heart for the Lord to ask myself in all things if my actions in them or my plans will please God first and foremost.
This is what my thoughts have been pondering recently and I am thankful for the reminder.
Have a wonderful weekend!